2/24/18
Hi Everyone,
This is my Blog "Life of Finn," it's basically me venting to myself that way I can get everything off my chest and do it confidentially. But if you someone how stumble upon this, you can continue to read but read with caution and perspective.
So this all begins with me, hence it's a blog about me... duh. Well My name is Finn as you know, I'm currently 19 years old living on the east coast of the United States. I grew up to an affluent family and lived a comfortable life, until around 12-13 years of age when my parents split up and I was forced to move from my home. We only moved about two blocks away but then my grandpa passed away and I lost yet another important person in my life. I've chosen to learn from my mistakes, as we humans are genetically programmed to, and I've learned to move on yet accept these experiences and internalize them. This has made me into the person I am today. I'm around 6' of Filipino and Irish descent and am kind of lanky. Now that you know about me lets get into the real shit. So as this title has given you the date let me explain the recent events that have occurred in my life. So I've recently been broken up with this girl, let's say her name is Danielle, so Danielle has definitely been acting strange to me and has definitely had a mood change and we've been fighting/arguing more often than needed. Mainly because I argue a lot and I don't know why. It's just something I've been programmed to do and it's definitely a character flaw. So we've been dealing with all of that and the Sunday after Valentines day, she calls it off. Her terms for our breakup was that she needed to focus on living with her depression, as she views it as it's never going to go away, and therefore I don't factor into her plans. But she made it clear that if we end up falling for each other in the future it'll just happen. Danielle turns 21 in March and she has begun to look to that day everyday, as like a saving grace. During our relationship she has begun to go to therapy and has been getting counseled. Now that's good for her. But she explicitly said to me, during our breakup, that if she ends up with someone at the bar in April it is what it is. Now I take so long to get over people, I've been through a dry period of 4 years that I haven't been in a relationship and I just wasn't ready to not be in one again. Now here's the thing, I'm Bisexual and I out right told Danielle this before our relationship began just so she knew as I didn't want to keep anything from her. But what I didn't tell Danielle is that back home (I'm in college) I've had sexual encounters with my friend, lets call him David, I did indeed reciprocate during these encounters and there was one specific time where he did something that I am and still not am, okay with. He tried to have anal sex with me and to me as of now I don't see myself having it with anyone that I'm not exclusively in a relationship with. Okay back to Danielle so she calls it off, say's she could hook up with a guy in a bar in April, and now flash forward to last night. I see Danielle for the first time since our breakup and she seems better, as bright and bubbly as shes always been to me. She explains everything shes done in the last week and how much better it has been without me and etc. Now I can't look at her without associating her as the love of my life, that's what I thought she was to me and she thought I was, but shes obviously moved on and I don't know how to feel. Okay that's what I have to say about that but I've chosen to post less on social media and cut ties online and move on to this blog and working on me.
So here's more information I found out about my friend, lets call her, Nadia. So Nadia transferred to my college from URI. Now in URI Nadia was apart of ZTA, a sorority, and there she was arrested on a trip to get alcohol, she participated in a game called Hit, Slip, Whoops and was forced to drug her fellow pledge-mates. She told me all about her experiences there. And wow were they a lot.
Thank you for reading see you tomorrow
This is my Blog "Life of Finn," it's basically me venting to myself that way I can get everything off my chest and do it confidentially. But if you someone how stumble upon this, you can continue to read but read with caution and perspective.
So this all begins with me, hence it's a blog about me... duh. Well My name is Finn as you know, I'm currently 19 years old living on the east coast of the United States. I grew up to an affluent family and lived a comfortable life, until around 12-13 years of age when my parents split up and I was forced to move from my home. We only moved about two blocks away but then my grandpa passed away and I lost yet another important person in my life. I've chosen to learn from my mistakes, as we humans are genetically programmed to, and I've learned to move on yet accept these experiences and internalize them. This has made me into the person I am today. I'm around 6' of Filipino and Irish descent and am kind of lanky. Now that you know about me lets get into the real shit. So as this title has given you the date let me explain the recent events that have occurred in my life. So I've recently been broken up with this girl, let's say her name is Danielle, so Danielle has definitely been acting strange to me and has definitely had a mood change and we've been fighting/arguing more often than needed. Mainly because I argue a lot and I don't know why. It's just something I've been programmed to do and it's definitely a character flaw. So we've been dealing with all of that and the Sunday after Valentines day, she calls it off. Her terms for our breakup was that she needed to focus on living with her depression, as she views it as it's never going to go away, and therefore I don't factor into her plans. But she made it clear that if we end up falling for each other in the future it'll just happen. Danielle turns 21 in March and she has begun to look to that day everyday, as like a saving grace. During our relationship she has begun to go to therapy and has been getting counseled. Now that's good for her. But she explicitly said to me, during our breakup, that if she ends up with someone at the bar in April it is what it is. Now I take so long to get over people, I've been through a dry period of 4 years that I haven't been in a relationship and I just wasn't ready to not be in one again. Now here's the thing, I'm Bisexual and I out right told Danielle this before our relationship began just so she knew as I didn't want to keep anything from her. But what I didn't tell Danielle is that back home (I'm in college) I've had sexual encounters with my friend, lets call him David, I did indeed reciprocate during these encounters and there was one specific time where he did something that I am and still not am, okay with. He tried to have anal sex with me and to me as of now I don't see myself having it with anyone that I'm not exclusively in a relationship with. Okay back to Danielle so she calls it off, say's she could hook up with a guy in a bar in April, and now flash forward to last night. I see Danielle for the first time since our breakup and she seems better, as bright and bubbly as shes always been to me. She explains everything shes done in the last week and how much better it has been without me and etc. Now I can't look at her without associating her as the love of my life, that's what I thought she was to me and she thought I was, but shes obviously moved on and I don't know how to feel. Okay that's what I have to say about that but I've chosen to post less on social media and cut ties online and move on to this blog and working on me.
So here's more information I found out about my friend, lets call her, Nadia. So Nadia transferred to my college from URI. Now in URI Nadia was apart of ZTA, a sorority, and there she was arrested on a trip to get alcohol, she participated in a game called Hit, Slip, Whoops and was forced to drug her fellow pledge-mates. She told me all about her experiences there. And wow were they a lot.
Thank you for reading see you tomorrow
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